Big Decisions

I am facing a lot of really big, important decisions in my life right now. I'm also facing a lot of smaller decisions that still might have a great impact on my life. I have absolutely no idea what I'm doing. A friend of mine tells me to have faith and just trust in God's plan. I completely do. That isn't my problem at all. I believe that God has a great plan for me and that all things work together for my good. Most things that are for the best in Him, completely suck to begin with (like facing emotions, people's reactions, etc); however, in the long run they are completely incredible. That's something I'm learning. If something is not from Christ, it generally has pretty awesome short-term benefits, and really bad long-term consequences.

I'm afraid of the future, not because I don't trust God's will for my life, but because I've basically told God that I'm not making the decisions. If He wants me to do something, He has to show me. It's been pretty awesome to see Him actually doing this in my life. I wasn't sure what I was supposed to do with my summer until I was nearly handed a summer resident mission position. I didn't have a job last fall when I lost my internship at a local church, but God handed me a job and some amazing new friends. Now, I'm up to grad school/seminary. I know I have plenty of options. I could go to school (Asbury, Duke, Garrett, CIU), I could go straight into the mission field and move to China or Africa, I could stay in town and save money working a few jobs here, I could travel the world...(except that I'm poor).

I am expectant. I am waiting on God. I know that He is working good things in my life. I just have to have faith and trust that in time, He will reveal His will to me. One piece at a time.