2 Corinthians 12:10

Yesterday was my first day off in 12 days, and I spent it in my apartment ALL day. I literally didn't unlock my front door until like 9:30pm when Walker delivered some rolls from O'Charley's for me. After tackling one room at a time through the apartment, organizing and cleaning, I found an old notebook with notes and stuff from some devotions I did a long time ago, so I spent all afternoon today transferring those notes into my current journal. It was nice to read back through the things I've learned and other things I've forgotten. I try to do that with the journal I have now, but sometimes it hits me in the middle of a sermon that I'm taking notes on that relate to something I've written about before.

Anywho...one thing I wrote about was ministering in weakness. This is one of those things that I know but I don't always remember, if you know what I mean. I know that God chose people in the Bible who weren't exactly the best looking option for the job at hand, and he used them for His glory. That's the point though, its not about us or anything that we can do. When we accomplish things that we can't normally do, we can know that God is working through us. It's hard, though, when we go through the motions that we're used to without any struggle, to remember that God is still working in us. Someone once told me that if you're doing anything that you could have done without God, you aren't being faithful. Having faith is acting with the knowledge that God will provide and protect.

Last week, I was facing situations at work that were new and different to me and I questioned my worthiness for this new job. I wondered if maybe I wasn't really cut out for it. If God can use a man with a speech impediment to lead an important movement, or a weak man to rule an entire nation, then He can use me to face uncertain circumstances and love the seemingly unlovable. I cannot do this job without Him, well I guess I could, but I would probably lose my mind.

I can't do anything without Him.

We crave affirmation from relationships and people, but only God can give it to us. We run to so much for validation, when we don't need anything more than His love. We are all broken and weak, but God is our strength.

I will rejoice in my weakness because "When I am weak, then He is strong."

His grace is sufficient and His power is perfected in weakness.