It's February, so naturally, it seems like everyone around me has paired off into happy little love bubbles. Don't get me wrong, I'm completely happy for everyone of my friends who have found their soul mates or are happily dating.
My roommate, one of my best friends, just got engaged. I am so incredibly happy for her and her fiance. They have been together for over a year and they work so well together.
I recently discovered that an ex-boyfriend of mine just got married in November. He and his wife have two precious little girls and seem really happy together. The band that I used to be a part of is still going strong with his wife supporting them from the crowd. I'm glad he's happy and in a good relationship. Another one of my ex-boyfriends, actually my first boyfriend, recently got engaged. He just started seminary in Charlotte. I haven't seen him in several years, and I hate that I've lost contact with him, but I really hope he's happy.
Other girls in the sorority that I used to be a part of have gotten engaged recently. I have this close group of girl friends and most of them are in relationships now.
As much as I want to be in a relationship and have someone to share things with and talk to about anything, I am happy to be alone at this point in my life, I think. I've spent the majority of my life since 8th grade going from relationship to relationship and I'm tired of it. I'm about to spend the summer living in west Montgomery as a missionary, then I'm leaving for Kentucky.
I am well aware that the happiness I long for won't come from a relationship from any guy. So often, I just have to stop myself, take a step back, and remember that everything happens in God's time. I have no idea what He has in store for me. The only thing I can do is wait and pray.
This is my mean time; between three and a half amazing years of undergraduate school and my future in seminary. God is still doing great things in my life and I know that I couldn't live another day without Him, sometimes I just wish He would give me a hint at what the future holds.
But not knowing what the future holds is one of the things that makes life so exciting. :)
ReplyDeletei love you. cherish the singleness, really. i know it sounds trite, but you will grow so much. asbury will treat you so well. aaaah, how i love you so. :)
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