Shaken

Today I faced a few things that were difficult for me to swallow. First, I was not selected for an internship in a church where I worked for the past year. I worked with the youth group and really grew to love the kids. I am really disappointed that I wont be working with them again this year, but I still want to be a part of their lives because I know the youth in this church need stable leaders who will stick around for them.

One of my responsibilities on campus at school puts me in charge on small groups, prayer and other things involving student "growth." I have been planing prayer groups and small groups for most of the summer and I have been really excited about them...however, tonight at our weekly worship event, a girl announced that there are two prayer groups that will be meeting weekly before worship. I think this is a great idea and I love that people are interested and willing to be involved, but I feel like my leadership just got taken over, like I wasn't doing a good enough job.

Other things, in addition to my lack of sleep, have had me really discouraged today. I feel like I already know the answer to my struggles though. I'm a part of things that are new to me this year and I am really excited about how God is going to use me for His will through my time and talents.

My prayer is that I just remember to stop and breathe and listen for the still small voice of God everyday. My life is in His hands and I give it all to Him. My emotions and my thoughts might feel like they've experienced an earthquake, but I am certain that my God will never be shaken.